que la vie est difficile!

Bah! I've to make a decision...about whether to join choir or not. I emailed my french teacher about it and he's kindly agreed to allow me to skip half an hour of french on fridays just so that I can go for choir practices. sigh. It's so hard to decide. On one hand, it's a good start that at least I can skip a little bit of french...but I'm not too sure whether the teacher-in-charge will allow it. On the other, I was also thinking about joining something new, since I've already been in the cca for 4 years...and I'm not particularly all that good a singer.

That brings me to the audition today. Gee. Miss Lim was really nice about it...guiding me through the tests. But the thing is, I was waaaay too soft. It's sad because I was so nervous I could hardly sing anything at all...I just get wrecked nerves everytime I've to sing solo. Darn. Why must I be like thaaaat? Bummer.

I've been attempting hard all this while to convince myself that perhaps hwachong isn't all that bad. It sucks having to be a second intake student. There seems to be this stigma about second intake students being "less capable" than the first intake students. Apparently, they even got the statistics to back them up! Can you beat that? *groans* That's why we (as in the poor second intake students...) have to contend with horrible treatment like teachers passing insensitive remarks (now now, won't go into specifics...) about how we should really work doubly hard. Hey. Let's get our facts right. Most of us did go to a junior college in the first three months...and we know our stuff alright. Ok...at least I did. I paid attention to most of the lectures...

And here's another newsflash. 12 hours of economics lectures after school. 4.45pm to 6.45pm every tuesday. Hohoho. Lucky us! Revision for all the topics I've already covered. I admit that I've done most of the topics already covered in hwachong, like the central problem of economics, demand and supply, elasticity concept. Well, except for a small chunk on consumer surplus and production deficit. But surely that doesn't warrant for a full 12 hours of lectures on stuff I've already learnt? It's horribly unfair...but for now, swee and I are going to take those multitude of lectures as a good form of revision. God forbid the tragedy of it all. I'm wondering how long this will last. A good whole term, I reckon.

Darn. Why am I such a "blog-bitch" sometimes? I complain sooooo much it gets on my nerves.

Ok. Mission impossible number one. Integrating into 05S71. All the boys there are from the school next door except me! Geeeee. But at least they're friendly enough...despite the fact that they've more or less formed a clique already. I'll try...my best to make friends.

Sometimes I wonder if raffles was all that bad....ARGH. Here I go again!