Revving the engine!

Ok, so PDCP came and went. I skipped quite a good bit of the lectures and the tutorials and still managed to write something decent for the exam.

Then my holidays were punctuated by periods of nothingness - just plain chillax.

And now, I'm busier than ever! Got the GAP thing, the research project that I'm doing with Abel and my diploma to work on. I actually felt a mild bit of stress today, which is disturbing considering these things are meant to be fun. I need to reassess my priorities, I think.

Inner struggles abound. Just a few days back I thought I sorted it out, but clearly they are back to haunt me. And I'm not sure why. It was one of those "I think I know myself better than all of you combined" days, but all the PDCP stuff about "people reflecting who you are back to you" is getting a little to me. I know I shouldn't be bothered but I've so much time on my hands now there's no harm indulging in self-contemplation (pun not intended).

Once again, thank God for friends and family. I wouldn't have been able to stay sane till now.

I puzzle myself sometimes. Will leave some of my thoughts for later. Filing them under "Good to think about, even better to act on later".

greetings, said the holidays.

And so the holidays have begun! :) I'm all radiant and beaming at the thought of having close to 4 months to chill and have a good time before the new school year starts in august.

I've always had the habit of asking myself what I want to achieve during the long holidays. Aims varied from learning how to play guitar (which not surprisingly came to no avail) to just lazing around and enjoying the moment (such as before NS, in the wake of the A levels). But this time, I realised it's pretty important for me to keep in touch with friends and family.

I haven't been studying too hard over the past year. Grades are pretty telling, I think! But somehow my moving out of the house to my granny's changed the family dynamics a little. Fortunately, it's for the better, though whether it's the case of "absence makes the heart grow fonder" I've yet to see, but it's definitely better for me to have my own room. My brother and I are just way too different for us to share a room together. The toilet(!) sends me into fits every time.

Friends! Must go out for often, to compensate for the lack thereof during the school term. Somehow everyone is just perpetually "busy" - I am too, though sometimes I really wonder, "with what"?

I'm still procrastinating about the whole DipABRSM/ATCL. Abel has long moved on - gotten a teacher, practising his pieces. And he even plans to complete his 1000 word programme notes by this holidays! And what have I done so far? Ok, I've hunted down Sonata in C major K309, my toccata by Bach and a Haydn sonata. Haven't had the time to look through the 20th century pieces though I really like the Rachmaninov preludes. I need to grab a teacher! ARGH. I really should decide whether I want to do this or not and just get down to actually doing it, instead of bumming around aimlessly with the piano.

Was enlightened yesterday about boy-meets-girl issues by Lois and shu. Thanks guys, appreciate it. I always have a good time out with you guys. :)

My cousin asked me why we have to pee and why we can't just retain all the water in our bodies. He's only primary one and he has already started to question the need to pee. Almost rolled over and died on the spot. The only thing I remember about peeing at that time was trying to freaking aim. My friend's maid even promised to give him 10 cents each time he actually pee-ed into the toiletbowl and not around it. Couldn't stop laughing when he told me that.