[the voice within]

Je me presse de rire de tout, de peur d'être obligé d'en pleurer. -Pierre Augustin Caron de Beaumarchais

Friday, November 18, 2005

Indulge yourself today.

It's worth it to indulge yourself. Trust me. That's what I've been doing for the past few days - on end. WOOT.

Went out with amanda, lois, shuxian and amy the other day right after my class chalet on tuesday. I was mighty bushed after spending the whole night cycling around East Coast Park, drinking ice cold latte from Macs (which tasted quite frankly, like crap.) and playing mahjong with my classmates, albeit only for 5 games before reality caught up with us. We were just too plain exhausted. Slept in the afternoon till 5pm and ended reaching a whole hour late for the dinner at Serene Centre! BAH. But the dinner was fantastic. I love meeting up with you guys, talking about church and about our latest happenings. Thanks for everything. =)

A very happy looking picture of the four of us, with my buddy, Shu(!!), to my right. She couldn't resist commenting that I look like a hamburger face. *rolls eyes* Insider joke.

*O Mio Babbino Caro plays in the background*

I just love that song to bits.

Oops. Digressed again. *beats myself on the head*

Again, I went out with my buddy to Orchard Road to pig out after going back to RV choir to see how well they were singing. It was actually a *shhh* secret ploy to see how they fare compared to us, as in, the hwachong jc one singers. Hm. I think they're not exactly better than us sound-wise, but at least they have no split-notes. Good Lord. My section is sooooo guilty of that, me notwithstanding. *gives myself a hard rap on the forehead* Keyword being focus. Sheesh. It's harder to sing in a choir than one might think. And oh yes, just for the record, not everyone can bloody sing like Charlotte Church or Pavarotti. Yes.

Shu, I really enjoyed going out with you that day. Thanks for confiding in me and for everything you've shared with me. Hahaha...Good friends last. Thank God. =)) Eat more fried mars bars next time, alright? =D

It's sinful, but heavenly. The fried mars bar at Chippy, basement one, Far East Plaza. Sheesh. What a shameless plug for them.

Choir has been great. Doing carols is uber fun.

Hm. Big announcement to make.

France in less than two days!!

There. Couldn't suppress that raging excitement in me. =)

Saturday, November 12, 2005

I hate surprises sometimes.

Performance at Chinese High for the Motherly United Nations conference today was downright horrid. I don't think we sang darn awfully, but I should think that the organisers could at least have come up with a better plan about what to do on the day itself instead of having the choir handle the drastic surprises you pull on us. GRRR. First, we had to stand on stage for a good 15 minutes before realising that there wasn't going to be a sound check and we had to stand for an additional 15 minutes looking like absolute gits on stage. As if we were the ones being punished! Talk about "unexpected surprises". *rolls eyes*

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That being said, I actually hit the gym today! Woot! New discovery today. I can't believe how good the condo gym is. Alright, of course it pales in comparison to big scale gyms like Fitness California, but those places are more for poseurs and people who just want to pick out a hot date. C'mon! You think people'd actually pay those sky-high prices to run 15 km on the treadmill? Gee!

Worked out for one hour - all the time having the whole gym to myself!

HAHA. Suckers!

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Gotta pack my luggage tomorrow. The nightmare unfolds!

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Our Journey.

Newsflash: An anonymous benefactor has just donated 100 million dollars to the Yale conservatoire of music, prompting the Dean to cancel all tuition fees for present and future students.

WHAT? 100 MILLION DOLLARS? Is that crazy or what? I'm sure all prospective music students are going to flock to Yale, especially since it's practically free now that they've got that gift that apparently dropped from nowhere. Now that's altruism for you!

Each time I receive my copy of my Our Journey, which was originally known as Our Daily Journey, I feel immensely guilty. Even though I am a church-goer, I can't be called a steadfast Christian, sadly. I look at some of my peers around me and I see how involved in their own churches and how the light of Spirit really shines through them and I'm just...ashamed at my own lackadaisical attitude. Like wth. I have to admit one reason why I don't do my QT everyday is because I'm ashamed of the things that I've done throughout the day. I feel so bad about it. And I feel as if I don't even deserve to read the Bible. Sigh. Have you ever felt that way? I really should get back to doing my QT every single day.

Opera is beautiful. The singers have such angelic voices. BAHHH. When will I be able to sing as effortlessly as them? =((

That being said, I went out with my french classmates after the french AO level written paper. The paper itself was alright, although we were all taken aback by the summary question, "If you were walking in a park, what would you do to prevent causing a fire?". That's in response to two *rather difficult* comprehension passages. Oh well. Stared at the paper for a good ten minutes before I decided to pen down whatever sentences I could string up with my limited vocabulary. Gee. I hate it when they test questions that require hard vocabulary.


Bryan, Georgia, Christl and me posing before the Christmas tree at Takashimaya! We had a great time browsing Kinokuniya for french books and linguistic books because Bryan had 50 extra dollars worth of vouchers to spend. That lucky bug. He bought like two dictionaries! Of which one, a German one, he's going to donate to the four of us to use when we learn German together next year. Danke! =)



My first ever Venetia (sic?) ice cream. I know it doesn't look awfully pleasing in this much unflattering picture, but trust me, it was heavenly! You'll never believe how rich their dark chocolate ice cream is. Worth the 2 friggin' dollars eighty cents. Every single cent of it. Yesssss.

And we've decided to go backpacking after our As or something! Although it does sound a bit crazy, we've made up our minds...for now. Hahah...we took like twenty minutes to decide on German as the language for next year. Oh well! I had a blast all the same. We should go out more often, guys! =)) And yes, I'm serious about the backpacking!

France in *drum rolls* 10 days!

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

In the wake of Project Work.

The long awaited day has arrived - the submission of the Group Project File. Along with it marks the end of Project Work. Together now, "YESSS!" OH man. You have no idea how good it feels to be finally rid of such a huge time-sucker. Really. I can't believe I actually had to say to lie and say that "PW has been an enriching experience." Oh right. Tell me about it! Ohhhh-kay. I've learnt the importance of time management, since PW saps too much time out of the week I have no choice but to make full use of the time to play and eat and sleep and read and -

You get the drift.

I say again - PW IS OVER! (Yes, in bold, for the emphasis.)

Earlier in the afternoon, I had my french listening exam. It was relatively easier than the prelims. Then again, what's new, right? I didn't expect them to come up with such a hard passage for section two, which happens to always be a pushover. By "hard", I mean a lot of vocabulary was unknown to us. Like how on *bleep* earth do you expect us to know how to say "gums" and "plaque" in french? Hello. For the good part, it sounded like that...

First reading : "3 minutes is the maximum time one should use to brush one's teeth. If one brushes too long, it will fhsrekduhrei hehisuj ehuehdju. And also, ejidheisjdue xhewyikw. One should not djrheyudheu shduehdh of 150 ehsujejhd while brushing because..."

ohhhhh-kay. Time to perk up for the second reading. And good golly, it still sounded like -

Second reading : "3 minutes is the maximum time one should use to brush one's teeth. If one brushes too long, it will grushe oehsk jeyth. And also, keoris ehrishe ejsh. One should not xheusi ehruth of 150 jushryeh while brushing because..."

Only that the french was slightly more comprehensible the second time round. Oh, at least it sounded like french. So ho hum. Guessed the answers for the two marks on "explain why one shouldn't brush more than the recommended time." Pfsh.

However, at that moment, I was really feeling the heat already. Two marks can be a difference between A1 and A2! ARGH.

Will have to score close to full marks for tomorrow's written paper. According to statistics, it's quite possible to score insanely high marks like 50/60 for the essay, comprehension and summary combined because it's rather easy.

I hope I go

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tomorrow. RAWR.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Another day of exams.

Gee. The week for the AO exams has finally arrived! Rejoice all year ones, for the evils of project work are coming to an end - for good! Haha...My group's pretty well prepared for the oral presentation, having already done it 3 times without a single glitch. We should do fine tomorrow unless something really bad happens...like this irritating sore throat of mine!

French AO is scheduled on tuesday and wednesday. Can't wait for it to be over! I spent the afternoon going through some french websites in a vain attempt to practise that much rusty french of mine. Did help a little, but not a friggin' lot. ARGH. I need the same miracle I had for the prelims! Please God, let me have my A1 for french! I love french. But I'd love it more if I scored that A1. LOL.

Going shopping soon! This is blog-worthy material too, considering the fact that I hardly ever buy clothes. I'm such a miser, really! I've to get long sleeved collared shirts for the french immersion programme (!!) just in case there are formal dinners and I need a decent pair of dress pants! ARGH. I can't believe I've been living so long without one. Yesterday was my aunt's ROM and I just couldn't find a half-decent shirt to wear and ended up wearing a horrible match of clothes. Goodness knows how I ever survived it all. I just thank God that there weren't many people there in the first place. The solemnisation took place at Sentosa. OMGOMGOMGOMG. It was uber romantic, what with the thousand dollar a night villa they rented just for the solemnisation and also the wonderful arrangements my aunt's husband ( I have no idea what to call him!) made for all of us. It was just mighty smashing to be chauffered around the island for the dinner, karaoke etc. Yes. Hahaha! Must have cost a hefty sum to do all that up!

I digress.

Anyway, so from now on, my timetable's frikkin' packed with activities, yay. That's a good sign! Will update on what happens during the week and how the exams go.

Gotta scoot to write those two rédactions I promised I'd do. Really.



Tuesday, November 01, 2005

And the rain continued to fall.

Having a stomachache on the bus really sucks. It really does. Can you even understand the pain of having to endure all that wrenching in your tummy and not one single frikkin' toilet in sight? *shudders* I'll have to stop eating weird crap in the morning. I just never seem to learn my lesson, eh?

Anyway, the past week has been great. Highlights include endless games of DotA(!!) and of course, just lazing around, reading my books. I had wanted to go for a run...but you all know what they say about having a good book and a nice cup of tea, right? Haha...

People seem to think that I don't usually play games. Hm. I do have a life, you know! Talking about that, having to do bio tutorials today is just insanely frustrating. Why must they have the mass tutorial? Gee.

On a better note, there's not going to be any more french lessons for me. I'm not even sure how I should have responded to the sms from my teacher informing me that the centre will be closed from now till the AO exam due to the GCE exams there are occuring concurrently. The feeling's bittersweet, I suppose. I can't believe I've actually slogged through (perhaps I should put it in a better light, but ho hum) 5 years of french just like that. There. All's over. And now, only the AO french exam awaits me. No Herculean feat, but I'd like to think that I should work for it. It's no pushover, that's for sure!

Many people around me are going crazy now that the exam's are over. I wish I could too, if not for the *insert suitable expletive* bio tutorials (in plural!). BLAH.

Alright. Another combined practice with NJ tomorrow. I'm sure I won't give up, but the thought of having to actually learn songs with them really sets me in fear. Afterall, they have strong singers, albeit only 3, on their side. Lord, help me.

Leaving for France in approximately 20 days. Can't wait! =D

[edit] And for the record, I've decided to just take maths S and chem S. No point appealing for econs S anyway, since my essay score is abysmal, to say the least. Maths S! Gee. I'm just praying I don't get owned by the F maths people halfway through the course. They literally breathe and live maths all day. No offense! Haha... [/edit]