yes, amidst the music.

on itunes: Angels and Devils by Dishwalla

Yes, in music I find solace from all my books. It's stifling trying to study day in day out and it's bleeding difficult trying to find some time to give myself in this terrible flurry of busyness - as much as I know that I'll miss this as soon as my days as a student are over. Sigh. Opposing desires, always.

Dishwalla is my favourite band at the moment! Totally gushing over the music. Some emo rock is always good, I guess. I don't exactly like the heavy sort, just more pop-ish and those that go easy on the bass, like serious! Can't stand the punk rock. Ugh. I know Opaline was released way back in 2002, but good music transcends time and it still remains a good album. Highly recommended!

I can't listen to music while I do my work, else I'll just end up humming to the tune or just singing out loud. SIGH. I wish I could just plug it in and do my maths or something. Talking about maths, I think doing the A level papers have been a relief. Their largely easier than the kind of questions we get in school, but they do ask funny questions at times. It's the 2, 3 marks questions that stump me...like....showing some equation has only one positive root. Blah. And doing chem has been ok too! Yay. Only bio's been the pain in the neck. ARGH. I take an hour or so to finish one topic so that adds up to about a good 20 hours or so working on completing the core syllabus. Depressing.

I've finished Microeconomics, but it's not done until you can write the damned essays. Oh man. I just hate writing econs essays 'cause I suck at them. Get your thoughts clear, dude. Yeah. Econs papers are in week 3 of the month of the "Yay"-Levels, so I can clear them after maths and chem is partially done.

Too much on work. GP's a wild card. I can't tell what I'll get, though an A1 will be good. Statistic's against me though. Only 70 people or so in the cohort get A1s at the A levels. 70??? That's like only 9% of the population! =((( And how on earth am I going to write as well as the humanities people who write so fluently? Talk about getting at least 15 for language.

Ok, ranting's over. Off to sleep now. More maths, bio and GP tomorrow. Frighteningly close, the A levels.

OH YEAH. I cleared the first round of interviews for the GIC scholarship!! Woohoo. The person in charge of the scholarships and thingys called me while I was taking my ritual half-hour nap in the afternoon. I almost ended up grunting over the phone. Vocabulary was reduced to "ok", "sure", "no problem". Sheesh. But that's great. Now on to say the right things. But I do want it so bad! It's a great career to have, I think. Sounds fun too! Can't say that about everything else.

Ok. Scoot.

distractions, begone!

Studying has been the thang in my life now, considering that's about the only thing worth mentioning, at least vaguely. Productivity is the new buzzword around here, I guess. Have been trying really hard to slave drive myself into working hard (like covering the whole of J1 econs essay plans and tutorials in one afternoon!) and there are alas! Days like today when I feel like a rotten pile of blob - epitome of laziness, I tell you.

Too many distractions!! Let's see now...

We have...











The PSP! And no, not the girl in bikini, you dud.














I should stop trying to slay monsters! Sheesh. Seriously. I spend 50 minutes on each quest (ok, 20 minutes if I just want a quick run...) and that really adds up at the end of the day. But I do reward myself 2 hours of it at night if I can...that's provided I finish at least 80% of what I aimed to do. Hm. Today? No. Still got a good 5 topics of prehistoric J1 bio to cover. Ugh.















I should stop putting my ipod in front of it. Half of the time while I'm reading out my notes to myself I just end up gawking at it or wondering whether I really should be spending the half hour (just "half hour", but everyone knows what that ends up as...) watching that one episode of Gray's Anatomy or anime. ARGH. Bad bad bad.

And of course, the number one distraction.
















My bed. Yeah. I'm very sleepy. Sometimes even when I'm not, I convince myself I am. WHAT THE HELL.

Begone, all ye distractions! =((( I will finish up my bio now.

breathless

Getting the momentum back after slacking for so long sure ain't easy! That I can attest to. As much as I want to get back into the mood, as with most other people around me, laziness is reigning now. ARGH. I just need to plan. Concrete plans, concrete plans! - I chant.

I've gotten myself a new iPod! Yay. I love my music way too much to carry just a paltry 256MB around me. Can only listen to one podcast since I can't help deleting the other songs in my phone that I like. All's worked out. I'll get the iPod now and later on my birthday, I'll get new headphones! Yeah. Good music's on its way!

When the oceans rise and thunders roar,
I will soar with You above the storm.
Father you are King over the flood,
I will be still and know You are God.

Love that song. I've been attending Youth Fellowship back at my Bukit Batok church and everyone's rather surprised by my sudden appearance. Like they thought I was dead or something! But it's been great immersing myself in the Word and having like-minded friends again. And catching up with church friends has been wonderful, though there's still this certain awkwardness that comes from having not met each other for sometime. Sigh. I'm just hoping that things will turn out better this time round.

Find rest my soul in Christ alone,
Know His power in quietness and trust.

I will set things right.

walking on sunshine.

Today is absolutely a =)))))))))))))))))) X1000 day. I appeared on the honour roll for bio! Like bio. Never, ever, not even for a single moment in my two years here, did I ever think that I'd even manage to get a whiff of a sweet B, but an A? Surreal. Way too surreal. I was just looking at the screen and gawking at all the usual peeps' scores and wondering how on earth do they ever attain them before pam told me that I was on the list.

LIKE WHAT? BIOLOGY?

Better than winning the lottery, I tell you. Ok, maybe not. If I won a million dollars in the lottery, I'd be exponentially happier.

But still, it's cathartic for me. More so than anyone else, I'd think. It just reminds me of how far I've come since the start of JC, with all the fear about not having taken O level bio and getting owned at SPA and the first test, to scraping Ds along the way and now, an A. Seriously, too much, too fast. This is very encouraging and it has just reaffirmed my belief that with hard work, anything is possible...though bio can be really hard at times.

Nothing can take me down today! Not even the stupid Mushroom quest that I can't complete on my game, not even the lousy SATII maths book I borrowed stupidly, not even the startling realisation that SAT2 French is no pushover! Nothing! 'Cause today, it's just...way too unreal.

Too good to be true, almost.

That being said, now that the dust has settled, it's time to get back to mugging. I've started on working the SAT2s, so I'm just planning to go slowly for now. Packing my table and reviewing my prelim mistakes is a pretty good idea. And I must work harder for my S papers! Sigh. I'm so close to scoring, but I just need that "enlightenment", as Ms Tan very aptly puts it.

Nirvana, babeh.