companionship versus love

"But you can't say that is love! That is merely a longing for companionship."

I've been wanting to blog about this for quite sometime now...in fact, almost a good two months. *gasp* That shows how busy I am...Gag. The typical life of a junior college student - bereft of any sort of decent time for pursuing one's leisure activities. Is the education minister reading this now?

Anyway...the point being, that statement was said by my friend in raffles about two months back. We were just happening to talk about this senior of ours who had recently broken up with his girlfriend. Somehow or another, we arrived at the definition of love and why people actually want to find "the other half".

I've been haunted by this for awhile. Each time I examine myself, I keep thinking about whether my motives for wanting to be involved in a relationship is "correct", so to speak. In the first place, who is to say that one is correct? How can you even quantify love?

Indeed, I feel I'm quite obliged to give the generic and more often than not politically correct answer that love is acceptance...love is the result of a good chemistry between two people yada yada...but I think that personally, I'd just like to find someone to accompany me through everything and be that person whom I can trust upon...and will support me.

I was quite tempted to voice out my opinion and to reject his idea about love...but still, would it be justifiable? Love is not merely companionship...there has to be some element of affection for each other as well. That part is undeniable. But I'm positive that no one wants to be an island. At least that's applicable to me. =)

Many of us have gone through (or are going through *sniggers*) relationships before and I think you guys will understand what a relationship really entails. It's not sugar coated with honey. Trust me. There's bound to be numerous obstacles along the way...and blah.

I digress.

Point being, what do you think is the "correct" motive aka justifiable reason for one to fall in love? What is your reason then? Is it even necessary to have one?

author's note : sorry for the uncalled for rambling. I've been plagued by it for a couple of weeks now and I can't help but get it off my chest. what crap am I talking about? this is my blog. ho hum. =)

down the toiletbowl?

LOL! Just to let you guys know, my friend Chen Lu flushed her handphone down the toiletbowl! *rofl* Now now now, you might be asking, "How is that ever possible?" Hahaha...the way Mingtse described it was so funny I couldn't stop laughing. Apparently, chen lu had finished her business in the toilet and the thing is, when she flushed the toiletbowl, her handphone accidentally fell out of her pocket and dropped into the swirling abyss. All she could do was stare at her handphone going in circles (it's anticlockwise, she added...) while it disappeared into the sewage system! Hahaha...lesson learnt : try not to fiddle with your handphone in the toilet.

Talking about toilets, I've got sooo many stories to recount. Just last tuesday, I had my makeup economics lecture as usual. I guess I drank too much water...which left me squirming in my seat because I was so urgent. Being the diligent *cough cough* student that I was, I didn't want to leave the lecture theatre unless it was absolutely necessary 'cause she was going through some multiple choice questions.

The time came when I felt like my bladder was going to burst. That was when I struggled past ten pairs of legs (I sat at the wrong seat...I couldn't exit from the right hand side.) before I asked for permission to go to the toilet.

Laaadeeedaa. Went to the toilet. I realised something was wrong. The toilets were dark. How could that be?

I tinkled with the switch a few times before I came to a conclusion - there was a blackout in the toilet.

At that point in time, it was getting very urgent and I could hardly walk up the stairs to get to the fourth floor toilet! bah. When I reached it after much effort, I realised, to my despair, that the toilet was also experiencing a blackout! Like what on earth! So I just entered and did my business at the urinal. It was really scary 'cause the toilets are uberrr sheltered so absolutely no light can enter the urinals in the corner, leaving it very much pitch dark. That was like the perfect scene for some horror movie.

Don't know why I had to pee so long some more. Grrr...frightening experience.

hasty

Oh gee. It's true that I've been very very caught up with my schoolwork as of late that I've hardly had anytime for myself, not to mention blog! And just as I'm typing this entry, I'm supposed to be studying for a whopping big biology lecture test tomorrow.

Guess what. My brother actually left my microscopy and part one and two of cell structure and function notes at home!! WHAT ON EARTH. So now I'm studying good ol' campbell for the cell organelles. Pfsh. Thank God I've got a two hour break before the biology lecture...so I'm going to use that fruitfully to study microscopy. Arrrgh. Stressed.

Life has been good so far. No choir practice on friday!! And no french class too...thanks to french olympiad!! Whoopee. Two of my classmates are participating in the olympiad...so I'm supposed to go and support them...but oh well. I'll think about it. Not that I don't want to, but I think I really really want to go home early on Friday! =))

SYF is in a week. Getting really scared...even though I'm quite confident of my parts. String ensemble got a gold with honours!! Whee. Good for them. =))

I will be sharing my testimony with the congregation on Sunday. So...will have to rush that out somehow. =( Oh well. I'll just take things one step at a time. Please do keep me in your prayers. =)

"ah guat" cheer

Hahaha...my friend told me a cheer and it's uuuuber funny! Hahaha...it's dedicated to our chemistry tutor, Miss Ooi Ah Guat. Hahaha...here goes.

Who are who are who are we?
We are we are we are who?
Who are we?
We are who?
Ooi Ah Guat!
Ooi Ah Guat!
*banshee like scream...*

LOLLAGE!! We were all roaring with laughter!! Hahaha..and just for your information, ooi is pronounced as "wee". Lol!

Funny day! =DD

audition results

wheee! All the second intakers were accepted to syf! yippee! I think I wasn't loud enough though...and I was horribly afraid. Gah. What's with me?

We had an exchange programme with National Junior College choir today. Their basses are freakin' good!! arrrrgh. So ashamed of ourselves. The disparity in the standard is awfully big. They've got everything a good bass section possesses - good tone, "ringing" voices and loud. Gee. In contrast...we're just horrible. Really have to start working back on the fundamentals again.

Actions for bin nam ma are crazy!! arrrgh. It's difficult trying to do all the actions and sing at the same time. So many things have to be handled simultaneously...like when to change parts and like counting how many syncopated bin nam ma's have been sung. And on top of that, you still have to handle all the confusing footwork and arms thingy. Hahaha...Have been working on it...especially the last tucking in of hands at the "m". That one really throws me off. Lollers.

Lol...I'm still really scared of my sectional leader and Felyna. Eeks. They're quite fierce...ok. Strict's a better word...but arrrgh. They really scare me to death sometimes. I guess they have to do their job. =) And they can be nice at times...but there's still no hiding the fact that they're quite intimidating. Perhaps like how jonathan 2 puts it, fear is good. lollage.

gah. really exhausted now after the full day practice. =) ciao.

getting lost in orchard

You really never know a teacher well enough unless you chat with him or her, in this case. Especially at an ice cream parlour. lollers.

Miss Chua, our civics and general paper tutor, gave the whole class a treat at evisto today! wheee. Can't believe it. She must have splurged a great deal on all of us. One cup of ice cream costs $2.80. There were 26 of us. That'll be...let me see...$72.80. *gasp* She's really nice as a teacher. Realised that she's a music and art enthusiast. Wow. Mingtse, Miss Chua and I had such a good talk today...hahaha...we promised to go watch for a concert together! =)) That's so great. I can't believe that Miss Chua actually listens to quite a wide range of music. Hahaha...Will have to strive to listen to a wider range of music..especially Baroque!! Oh man. There's something about the simplicity and ordered beauty of Baroque music that really enthralls me. The other periods...well, just don't offer the same feel as baroque. Classical comes close...but oh well. It's just so different.

Feeling so stupid today. Spent a good whole 30 minutes combing through orchard for Far East Plaza. Darn. I got lost in orchard!! That's unbelievable. Just when I thought I knew the place like the back of my palm. Gee!

Shall have to go through my scores today...if only to get my notes right. Memorising scores will take a bit more time...but until I get my notes right, especially for bin nam ma, I'll never be able to even memorise. Heard there'll be auditions for syf for the second intakers. Oh well. Like what I said, even if I can't make it, I wouldn't feel too hard up about it. Taking it easy.

Deep breaths.

*untold tales-

musings of a college one student*

Hohoho. College one student. Sounds so freakin' formal. Hahhaa...but it's just hwachong trying too hard once again to act cool. bah bah.

Life has been great so far! Yay. Thanks to yours truly for completing all my darned tutorials during the weekend! hahaha...I so hardworking can. =))

sighhh. They'll be confirming whether I can participate in SYF this saturday. I really really hope that I can secure a place!! =( 'Cause the thing is, I've really tried quite hard to learn the songs and I really really like the songs a lot! At least more than "my love dwelt in a northern land"! hahaha...OH well. Even if I don't get in, I don't think I'll feel any sense of hatred for the choir. Fact remains that I've missed ALL the monday practices...which isn't so good. =) I'll still work hard for it on saturday I think. Will have to run through all my scores again.

Econs rocksssss. I love econs so much...but it pains me to think that it can be so utterly confusing at times. Like the test today. Wasn't exactly crash and burn, but you get the idea. Scored well for the diagnostic test. That'll show them. Hope I do well for this test as well...even though I don't know how on earth changing total variable cost and fixed cost will affecct marginal cost. Lollers. Sounds so easy and yet it's so tough. tsk tsk tsk. NEVER judge a book by its cover.

I've been thinking a lot these few days. But I shan't post my thoughts here...'cause I think it's best I keep them to myself. Never hurts NOT bitching about anyone, right?

anti-tutorial advocate!

Yes! I'm so proud of myself for finishing all my biology, maths and chemistry tutorials! Yippee! That leaves me with arithmetic and geometric progressions. I ponned (skipped) the lecture last wednesday! Gag. Couldn't help it. I really wanted to go for choir practice...

Choir has been fun. At least so far. The songs that Miss Lim chose were great...all of them are artistic and requires a high level of sophistication to pull it off well. Love Bin nam ma. Has to be one of the most interesting songs I've sung so far. Not too sure whether I still can be in SYF...considering the fact that I have to miss all the monday practices due to french classes and that I have yet to learn all the songs. Ohhh well. I'm just going to let nature take it's course.

Heard of the TKGS scandal yet? It's really quite serious...having 81 people on stage on SYF. Sigh...Miss Lim told us all about it. Just in case there are people who don't know nuts about SYF, it's THE competition for cultural groups in Singapore...the most important one locally at least. By the rules of the "game", all groups are only allowed a maximum of 80 people on stage. A bigger number of people on stage would result in a 10% (*gasp!*) penalty of points. 10% is a lot of points. Imagine your choir scored 89. Doing the maths would yield 8.9 points. Though that wouldn't put you far back, but that can endanger your chances of getting gold with honours. OH well. That's what happened to TKGS I guess. Rumour has it that they scored really well...and despite the 10% penalty, they were awarded gold. Doesn't take a genius to realise that they probably would have garnered a VERY HIGH gold with honours, if not for the penalty. How sad. Now choirs and bands all over are making sure that they keep to the threshold...sigh.

However, RV choir scored gold with honours!! Yay! So proud of you guys. This year, there were 7 SATB choirs and 2 SSAA choirs awarded with gold with honours. Could have been 3 SSA choirs if not for the TKGS thing...

jaded*

tired of school already. It's so ironic. Hwachong really has a lot of things to offer...And I really like after school activities like choir. Just that...the amount of work that has to be completed is just breathtaking. I really wish I could just collapse sometimes...Darn.

under it all

Oh darn. I've got so much work to catch up on! Ok...perhaps not that much. But just by looking at the sheer thickness of the notes that I photocopied the other day, it's enough to keep me busy for a long while.

Looking on the bright side of things, I'm quite glad that the choristers are great people. =)) Went out with them for lunch the other day after the science symposium...and it was great fun eating with them! That being said, I'm feeling quite guilty for not being able to go for all the practices. Sometimes I wonder if I'm really over-committing myself. Doing french AO, joining such a high commitment cca and having biology practicals that stretch well into the afternoon - am I able to cope with all of them? I've thought about discontinuing french, but the thing is, I've been selected for the immersion programme at the end of the year. It's a once in a lifetime experience to be able to spend a month in France and no way am I going to give that up. Bah.

And that leaves choir. I love being in a choir and singing and all that...but the thing is, how am I going to be able to perform when I go for less than two of the three practices? I can't go for the monday practice thanks to french and biology and even on fridays, I have to leave early to attend french class! *sigh* Why must they all clash? Darn.

Class dinner went great. It was the same ol' stuff...eating at a restaurant and talking crap. Finally got my harry potter book at $8. Yes. It's a steal, I know. =D

Oh well...time to get down to all the stinky tutorials that I've got. Ciao!